I was totally consumed. April and May were consumed with decisions about school for Booberry and Pie. Private school? Public schools? Homeschool? We spent hours praying, thinking, visiting, talking to people… Trying to discern God’s best for our family and the girls. At one point, I looked at James, half laughing, half crying and said, “I can’t believe how much time we are spending on kindergarten!!!” I needed and wanted to hear His voice.

Mommies, we all need to hear God’s voice.

When you are trying to decide where to send your child to school. Or what curriculum to use for homeschool. Or how to discern your child’s gifts and nurture then, helping them to fulfill their destiny. Or any of the millions of decisions we make as parents, and moms as primary caregivers (generally speaking, of course) that affect our precious children.

To be honest, I had a lot of fear. What if I make a wrong choice? What if what I think is best is not what God wants? Why can’t He make it clear and send me a text? I want and need to hear Him!!!

Aren’t we like that? We want a text message from God or Him to spit out directions like Mapquest,  to our destination. The problem is that eliminates relationship. I don’t love and serve Mapquest. Mapquest serves me. God wants to walk with me and He will speak, even if it’s not the way I want or expect.

I’m so glad I’m a little sheep in the hands of The Great Shepherd. I love the fact that Jesus called us sheep…. An animal that needs a caregiver; for if the sheep falls, it cannot get up by itself…. a dumb little creature that needs guidance and protection from a loving hand. Yes, sounds like me.

He promises me that I will hear His voice. I can rest knowing that if I need to hear something, He will make sure I get it. That is good news. Great news. Especially when my decisions affect my children. (Then again, all of our decisions affects others…)

Thank you Lord that even when I make mistakes, and go in a direction that is not the best, You can get me where I need to be. Thank You Lord that even when I cannot seems to hear Your voice, You are with me and I can trust Your Holy Spirit to lead me in truth. Thank You Lord that your mercies at new every morning and even though I make make a wrong turn, You can use everything, EVERYTHING, for good

I can trust You to speak, and I will hear Your voice.

I can trust You with my heart,  and the heart of my children.

You will speak.

You are leading.

I give You my heart, and will afresh today.

Speak Lord.

Remove whatever wax is in my ears, preventing me from hearing You.

You are so good.

” ‘…the sheep hear his voice and he calls his own sheep by name and leads them out…the sheep follow him, for they known his voice…I am the Good Shepherd and know My sheep, and am known by My own….and they will hear My voice…’ ” John 10:3,14,16

Next….I’ll  keep posting about my journey and the wax in my ears….